I think I'm such a failure. I just never put in my best efforts and tend to regret!!!
Got back my Emaths test today, didn't really done well for it. As I expected, I got the careless mistake of the probability question wrong! If only I was given a little of 5 more seconds for me to consider and change the answer, I would get it right! 3 marks, a careless mistake worth of 3 marks! And I got a careless mistake in the indices question and I lost 1 marks because of it! And another one, -3^2 is equal to -9, not 9! Aren't I'm a failure? I can't even do such a simple question, just press the calculator and it will give you the answer -9! Simple as that? Why can't I just get it right? Why can't I check my paper throughly and make less careless mistake? Why can't I make use of the time to revise?! Doesn't that enough to make me a failure?!
As for today, I did my Biology and Chemistry test paper! I didn't really studied HARD for it, and expected that the result won't be so good. And worse still, Miss. Kom didn't even gave us a copy of the periodic table! How does she expect us to do those questions that need the proton number of the elements? We can't memorise everything okay?! What is the proton number of Zn? I can't remember okay? What is the proton number of Sulphur? I didn't memorised it alrights?! The periodic table should rightfully be given to us, everything in the periodic table is not memorised by heart! I just felt so disappointed with myself when I did the Biology and Chemistry test. I'm such an underachiever!
And I think today is a bad day for me. I went to my cousin's house as she's inviting everyone for some eatting and gathering thing. There were lots of strangers when I reached there. All those aunties and uncles whom I don't even know or had any connections with. So I just sat there and watch tv and slacked my time away, while the aunties and uncles whom I don't even know gamble away. I didn't really want to join in their game, as I just don't have the feel to gamble. So I guess lady luck wasn't with me today. And what irritated me was an uncle! He was standing right in front of me, blocking the view of mine. How do he expect me to watch the tv? The noise level is already loud enough to cover the sound of the tv, and yet he blocked my view? And please be automatic, you didn't grow up eating glass okay?! And worse still, he smoked in front of me! Freaky freak! And I was watching him, and fanning the smoke away, to express myself that I dislike the smoke! And what a freak, he smoked somemore, infront of me somemore! And he made those expression of him enjoying smoking! What a freak! Second-hand smoker are likely to get cancerous diseases then smoker themselves! Please use your brain alright? If you wanna spent your life smoking and made it harm your health, go ahead please. But please don't drag those who still have a bright future ahead along okay? Inconsiderate! It's just so frustrated! I can't do anything else beside sit there. I can't watch the tv, cos it was blocked by some freak? So what you expect me to do? Just felt so frustarted! And worse still, whenever there's staridol news, the uncle would block the view! And without the volume, I was hoping I could catch a glance of some images, but NO. How I wish the phonecall of Choong was today instead of the other day. At least I could have much things to talk to him, and I can tell him how I was feeling then. At least I wouldn't feel so frustrated, and the frustrations could at least calm my nervousness, and make me less nervous in talking to him. And talking to him, at least can burn out that little fire in me. Sigh! And what was worse, the aunties and uncles just know how to gamble, and they don't even know that during Chinese New Year, they should give angbaos to the younger generations! And I received NONE from these stranger!
Okay, whatever, what a sickening day I had! Through there may be many unhappiness, little things could be able to bright up my day and wash away those unhappiness. I'm gonna learn to be someone who can smile their ways through problems. I'm gonna stay happy and elated! Life is beautiful. Life isn't always smooth-sailing, I had just experience the negative sides of life.
And I must study study study HARD! Real hard! No more slacking! STUDY! And also for the sake of Choong's "Study Hard!" Yes, cos of his "Study Hard!", I decided to put in double the effort!
Alright, I'm just venting out my frustrations! :)
Okay, gonna hit the sacks...
Ciao!
